Ok so I’ve only had this laptop for like 6 month. It’s the new HP touch screen laptop I longed for this type of device, the day I bought a touch screen cell phone knowing that it would make my days of school papers fly with flying colors because I don’t need to type. I can write on the screen and BAM! It’s all typed and the paper looks great with few minor adjustments I’m good to go! She is my baby she is my life now…
Today my roommate ask to use it, I let him since it’s not the first time. Instead he let his mom’s boyfriend; by the way the full house is getting smaller. It’s beginning to feel a bite lonely. It’s quite I mean we are loud still but not as louder and that was pretty cool everybody laugh. Any who back the point? I didn’t mind when I saw him giving it to his mom’s boyfriend; I only gave him a look and stated if anything happen it’s on him.
Not even ten minutes I get a call from downstairs. I had gone to my room at this point so back down. There she was not functioning to her full capabilities. She was slow, wouldn’t respond to her commands. At this point I am boiling because I have never had a problem like this and I don’t know where to start to make it better. As I’m fighting for the life of my laptop, they decided to leave. Leave me with what has been broken honestly is that even right? Masts up someone’s belonging and leave them worries as you go by your day. Seriously who does that? I was pretty piss off.
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Ok so I’ve only had this laptop for like 6 month. It’s the new HP touch screen laptop I longed for this type of device, the day I bought a touch screen cell phone knowing that it would make my days of school papers fly with flying colors because I don’t need to type. I can write on the screen and BAM! It’s all typed and the paper looks great with few minor adjustments I’m good to go! She is my baby she is my life now…
Today my roommate ask to use it, I let him since it’s not the first time. Instead he let his mom’s boyfriend; by the way the full house is getting smaller. It’s beginning to feel a bite lonely. It’s quite I mean we are loud still but not as louder and that was pretty cool everybody laugh. Any who back the point? I didn’t mind when I saw him giving it to his mom’s boyfriend; I only gave him a look and stated if anything happen it’s on him.
Not even ten minutes I get a call from downstairs. I had gone to my room at this point so back down. There she was not functioning to her full capabilities. She was slow, wouldn’t respond to her commands. At this point I am boiling because I have never had a problem like this and I don’t know where to start to make it better. As I’m fighting for the life of my laptop, they decided to leave. Leave me with what has been broken honestly is that even right? Masts up someone’s belonging and leave them worries as you go by your day. Seriously who does that? I was pretty piss off.
Today my roommate ask to use it, I let him since it’s not the first time. Instead he let his mom’s boyfriend; by the way the full house is getting smaller. It’s beginning to feel a bite lonely. It’s quite I mean we are loud still but not as louder and that was pretty cool everybody laugh. Any who back the point? I didn’t mind when I saw him giving it to his mom’s boyfriend; I only gave him a look and stated if anything happen it’s on him.
Not even ten minutes I get a call from downstairs. I had gone to my room at this point so back down. There she was not functioning to her full capabilities. She was slow, wouldn’t respond to her commands. At this point I am boiling because I have never had a problem like this and I don’t know where to start to make it better. As I’m fighting for the life of my laptop, they decided to leave. Leave me with what has been broken honestly is that even right? Masts up someone’s belonging and leave them worries as you go by your day. Seriously who does that? I was pretty piss off.
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
"A letter to God"
I watched this movie called “A letter to God” so I wonder if we could write God a letter what will it about? Would it be like a journal telling him about our day? Will it be like writing a list to Santa? Would it be a letter of hope, forgiveness, watching over us, what will a letter to God talk about?
I don’t know per say, but this is what I will write to God about in hope for some answers.
Dear God
I’m no saint; I don’t even know what that really means without Google ling it lol. I have a lot of questions, I’m sure you’re a busy God after all; I watched Bruce Almighty, which by the way you picked a great actor to play you. Was that your decision by the way? You don’t have to answer that one since you’re so busy I need to ask serious questions. So here goes nothing. To others this might be an easy question maybe because you’ve given them the answer apparently I didn’t get that memo, so I ask again
Is one born with faith or is faith seeked throughout life as we grow? Is faith like riding a bike, because if it is I see why I did not get the memo I sure don’t know how to paddle so that sucks if that’s how you delivered your message. I’ve been told and it is said “all you need is faith and believe” truth be told that’s easily said than done let’s be frank with each other here…
I am not one to close thy eye without fear of being perished by a mad man in a dodge charger, because there running late for whatever purpose. I know… if it was meant to be then that will be my time to go great. As I’ve said before, thy fear no death for every beginning comes an end. Thy problem on the other hand is must one go through the pain and suffering lying in there death bed for the sake of faith or believe?
Let’s say for thy names sake one you walk eyes close through the path of danger and make it to the other side. There will still be some type of catastrophes; like the car which swirl around in avoidance to hit one on foot, they might either hit a tree, another car, another person I mean seriously where is the faith or belief in that?
It seems to me like in place of one’s faith or belief, another being’s life stands in question in exchange for an answer.
It’s like this movie “The Box” this move was about couples that were going through financial difficulties and where given answers to their suffering. The catch on the other hand was should they open “the box” they will receive one million dollars and someone out there will die.
Come to think about it is that how the lottery works? One family wins another family is destroyed?
If you ask me this is how I see it…supposedly there is a verse in the bible says” seek and ye shall find” is there a fine print that says there will be consequences? If that is the case, than why give me the options, choices, and ability to question things
Again let’s be real; there are reasons to why we see “yes or no, why, why not, maybe, sometimes,” we ask questions in search for an answer. I won’t give money away without knowing where it’s going, its purpose, etc.
For now this is all I have. I hope for an answer. Do you think if I put postage on it that it would be delivered somewhere or will the post office throw it away? Hhn this is so weird, writing a letter that I know for a fact it will never be deliver. I know that what I saw was just a movie, but the thing is it gets you thinking what if?
What if a lot of people are getting on their knees at the same time every night, morning, evening, seconds, hours, and minutes, do you have a hard time understand all of us at the same time. Do you forget most prayers? I think that could be a possibility, I’m just saying 28 years old and I haven’t seen anything yet.
I mean you can’t blame me for letting you go.
Honestly you left me alone for the longest. Those people did not watch over me they turned me to their little fucking slave. They turn me to whatever they pleased. At 8 years old I didn’t know any better and you should have been there for me. You should have protected me. I am the way I am today because of you. I don’t trust anyone, I don’t believe in anything or much at all because you were never there so how dare you want me to have faith without questioning your motives or purpose. How dare you think I will just drop everything supposedly just have faith. Faith doesn’t put money in my account; faith doesn’t make me sleep at night cause I sure as never sleep at night. Faith does nothing for me and I will not apologize for that.
You see this is the reason I don’t speak to you about how I feel, because I have so much pain and anger towards you I can’t put it all into words and yes I ’m crying. If you were in a form of a human standing in front of me I seriously would punch the life out of you. I will slice pieces of your body with a knife so you can feel the pains I’ve been through and every time I’ve cut myself. Every blood of mine that dripped…
I don’t know per say, but this is what I will write to God about in hope for some answers.
Dear God
I’m no saint; I don’t even know what that really means without Google ling it lol. I have a lot of questions, I’m sure you’re a busy God after all; I watched Bruce Almighty, which by the way you picked a great actor to play you. Was that your decision by the way? You don’t have to answer that one since you’re so busy I need to ask serious questions. So here goes nothing. To others this might be an easy question maybe because you’ve given them the answer apparently I didn’t get that memo, so I ask again
Is one born with faith or is faith seeked throughout life as we grow? Is faith like riding a bike, because if it is I see why I did not get the memo I sure don’t know how to paddle so that sucks if that’s how you delivered your message. I’ve been told and it is said “all you need is faith and believe” truth be told that’s easily said than done let’s be frank with each other here…
I am not one to close thy eye without fear of being perished by a mad man in a dodge charger, because there running late for whatever purpose. I know… if it was meant to be then that will be my time to go great. As I’ve said before, thy fear no death for every beginning comes an end. Thy problem on the other hand is must one go through the pain and suffering lying in there death bed for the sake of faith or believe?
Let’s say for thy names sake one you walk eyes close through the path of danger and make it to the other side. There will still be some type of catastrophes; like the car which swirl around in avoidance to hit one on foot, they might either hit a tree, another car, another person I mean seriously where is the faith or belief in that?
It seems to me like in place of one’s faith or belief, another being’s life stands in question in exchange for an answer.
It’s like this movie “The Box” this move was about couples that were going through financial difficulties and where given answers to their suffering. The catch on the other hand was should they open “the box” they will receive one million dollars and someone out there will die.
Come to think about it is that how the lottery works? One family wins another family is destroyed?
If you ask me this is how I see it…supposedly there is a verse in the bible says” seek and ye shall find” is there a fine print that says there will be consequences? If that is the case, than why give me the options, choices, and ability to question things
Again let’s be real; there are reasons to why we see “yes or no, why, why not, maybe, sometimes,” we ask questions in search for an answer. I won’t give money away without knowing where it’s going, its purpose, etc.
For now this is all I have. I hope for an answer. Do you think if I put postage on it that it would be delivered somewhere or will the post office throw it away? Hhn this is so weird, writing a letter that I know for a fact it will never be deliver. I know that what I saw was just a movie, but the thing is it gets you thinking what if?
What if a lot of people are getting on their knees at the same time every night, morning, evening, seconds, hours, and minutes, do you have a hard time understand all of us at the same time. Do you forget most prayers? I think that could be a possibility, I’m just saying 28 years old and I haven’t seen anything yet.
I mean you can’t blame me for letting you go.
Honestly you left me alone for the longest. Those people did not watch over me they turned me to their little fucking slave. They turn me to whatever they pleased. At 8 years old I didn’t know any better and you should have been there for me. You should have protected me. I am the way I am today because of you. I don’t trust anyone, I don’t believe in anything or much at all because you were never there so how dare you want me to have faith without questioning your motives or purpose. How dare you think I will just drop everything supposedly just have faith. Faith doesn’t put money in my account; faith doesn’t make me sleep at night cause I sure as never sleep at night. Faith does nothing for me and I will not apologize for that.
You see this is the reason I don’t speak to you about how I feel, because I have so much pain and anger towards you I can’t put it all into words and yes I ’m crying. If you were in a form of a human standing in front of me I seriously would punch the life out of you. I will slice pieces of your body with a knife so you can feel the pains I’ve been through and every time I’ve cut myself. Every blood of mine that dripped…
I need to stop know because I’m yearning the feel of a sharp blade against my skin because the pain I’m feel is more than my heart can take and I told myself I wouldn’t do it again but right now it’s really hard.
Sunday, September 5, 2010
STUPID QUESTIONS
The saying goes “there is no such thing as stupid question” wrong! So wrong it makes you want to shake the people asking questions.
At work there has been a little change to the freezer that most of the products had to be moved from the store. Therefor we were out on most products. Know seriously if you see a whole section empty why in the darn world would you ask if we have it available?
Yes we do have it I just don’t feel like putting it out because I want to be annoyed every five second by your dam questions.
For arguments sake, there is a sign that says out of work. It’s written in big words. Why in heaven would you ask me if its working? Seriously seriously! Am I just an annoyed person that doesn’t like people asking me things or is it that things are so easily simplify that stupid questions are been asked when the answer in right in front of your face.
At work there has been a little change to the freezer that most of the products had to be moved from the store. Therefor we were out on most products. Know seriously if you see a whole section empty why in the darn world would you ask if we have it available?
Yes we do have it I just don’t feel like putting it out because I want to be annoyed every five second by your dam questions.
For arguments sake, there is a sign that says out of work. It’s written in big words. Why in heaven would you ask me if its working? Seriously seriously! Am I just an annoyed person that doesn’t like people asking me things or is it that things are so easily simplify that stupid questions are been asked when the answer in right in front of your face.
FULL HOUSE
This is how many people that live in a four bedroom house.
Me
B with her daughter
B’s brother name J with her wife and son
B’s aunt that’s seven people
Know the aunt’s daughter and her husband come on Friday. Then on Saturday J’s wife, her family came that her mom, sister and dad.
Today, Sunday I wake up there B’s mom and her boyfriend are home too. Wow for an anti-social person this is major complication. That is a lot of people to make conversations with. So do I stay in my room all day or get out of the house?
It’s’ more difficult because my Spanish isn’t that great since all the adults don’t speak much English and my Spanish is a working progress. What to do? What to do? That is the magic question? So I sit in my room and watch twilight sagas since I’m craze about it.
Maybe I’ll write my book since I don’t want to be part of crowd.
Me
B with her daughter
B’s brother name J with her wife and son
B’s aunt that’s seven people
Know the aunt’s daughter and her husband come on Friday. Then on Saturday J’s wife, her family came that her mom, sister and dad.
Today, Sunday I wake up there B’s mom and her boyfriend are home too. Wow for an anti-social person this is major complication. That is a lot of people to make conversations with. So do I stay in my room all day or get out of the house?
It’s’ more difficult because my Spanish isn’t that great since all the adults don’t speak much English and my Spanish is a working progress. What to do? What to do? That is the magic question? So I sit in my room and watch twilight sagas since I’m craze about it.
Maybe I’ll write my book since I don’t want to be part of crowd.
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Drunk Writer
So I have been drinking…lol no I’m drinking as we speak so if there is any typo this is how a drunk or nearby drunker writes lmfao. Any who so I have no idea why we are up how late is it anyway?
I’m in the kitchen because I slept earlier and know the eye does not want close lol. I figure I should fix my journal which by the way I had to do over, because my dum behind decided to restore my laptop to its manufacture stage without backing up the files that I needed.
It’s a good thing that I blog my journal so I was able to go back and copy everything, yet it was still a pain in my rear this was not the plan. At least there was a backup plan and it was fixable.
What I learned today is always have a backup plan save what you think is important so there won’t be any stress in upcoming life. That sounded so dum and stupid who say things like that? Any who I must go to bed I do want to wake up sober don’t I?
I’m in the kitchen because I slept earlier and know the eye does not want close lol. I figure I should fix my journal which by the way I had to do over, because my dum behind decided to restore my laptop to its manufacture stage without backing up the files that I needed.
It’s a good thing that I blog my journal so I was able to go back and copy everything, yet it was still a pain in my rear this was not the plan. At least there was a backup plan and it was fixable.
What I learned today is always have a backup plan save what you think is important so there won’t be any stress in upcoming life. That sounded so dum and stupid who say things like that? Any who I must go to bed I do want to wake up sober don’t I?
